Just want to scream

I just want to scream because I'm confused
their changing stuff up and I don't know what to do
One minute we moving foward next minute we moving back
Today ain't the day it needs to be like that
When we go back to make our schedules for next semster
I'm going to make sure I have the type of teachers that have their selves together
Irritation is what I'm feeling don't think I should've came today just cause
I mean if you think about it things were better left at what they were
I just want to scream so can I go outside please
maybe someone will tell me to go home and let them have peace
if so then I will do just that go home and go to sleep
Have peaceful dreams and get up under the covers where I can't be seen
Close my door so that my snores can't be heard
and maybe when I wake up everything either won't be remembered or
it will all just be a blurr!!!!!!!

Looking for something

I'm looking for something and I still haven't found it
I have faith that I will find it today and if not I the faith is still kept that I will find it tomorrow
And if not then the faith is going to be kept until I find it
I've been waiting for a year now and I've been doing what it takes to find this
But it seems as if I keep getting these road blocks that stop me in my tracks
Sometimes I feel like it's not meant for me to look then sometimes I feel it is
I mean maybe if I stop looking it will make its way to find me
Only GOD knows so I should just chill, kick back, and wait and see
But apart of me like I said doesn't want to stop looking
Because I feel that if I stop I won't ever find it

Not my best work

I don't think that is my best, you  know that paper that I just turned in
That paper that was due today that I just wrote yesterday
Lastnight around 9:45 I honestly just wrote something down
I felt confused, consumed with so many thoughts
My day yesterday wasn't good at all
I got hot and I mean as hot as the sun
I was burning up but don't know the degrees it was son
I came to school  today went straight the library so I could type up
those written down words that were wrote in pen, chicken scratch handwriting is what I did then

Can't just stand still

Can't just stand still no not here in this world
We only got one life to live and we gotta live it to the fullest
Looking over our shoulder's is what many of us do out here
in this world because some of these people are just that cruel
Can't just stand still because we might miss out on something
I've been standing still for a long time because of the fears of the world that I have
Praying everyday that he washes them away and instill in  me a dose of confidence
Because I don't want to continue to live my life like this
Been trying to come outta my shell
Making conversation's with people as I'm here on campus
Trying to find things to do with my spare time other than go home and lay down
Come to find out other people are standing still just like me
But I try to encourage them to not stand still that they have to move their feet
Beyond school grounds...home bound...can't you see
I don't want these people to end up like me
lost in a world that I was born into years ago
to come this far to continue to feel that I will never find the thing that I'm looking for
People we can't stand still we have to continue to grow and find some kind of way to let
the fears of this complicated world go!

Got to keep the Faith

Got to keep the faith is what has been instilled in me
I know that he got me and he won't ever leave
He's done so much in my life already
I continues to ease my pain when my heart feels heavy
Faith yes best believe I have
Cause when my grandmother got diagnosed with cancer, and we thought we lost my little cousin
He brought us two miracles and from then on we never left out of their sight without hugging
He knows what he's doing and all he wants for us is to know that he is worhty to be praised
And I don't just mean only on rainy days
He does what he has set on his mind and he also comes on time
Callem when you need him
I promise he is going to come running
He answers you right then but the blessing sometimes is slow coming
Reason as to why is cause he is trying to prepare you for it
so if there ened up being pain he knows you won't run from it
He has to be sure that he can trust you with that gift
He has to know that you won't give the devil a lift
We fall short everyday that we are here
But forgives us even before we committ a sin and he wipes every tear
I LOVE this gift he gave me the TALENT of WRITING
cause without it I don't know what I would do
how I wouold release pain and let people know about the things I've been through

I'm lost

I'm lost and at the same time irritated
I know that we can't predict what is going to happen minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years from now
But I think I should've we should've been informed about something, my concentration has been throwed off
I need to find a way to gain it back
GOD knows the frustration and I'm hoping he eases my mind
I'm trying to continue to go with the flow of things praying that this devil doesn't shatter my dreams

I think I'm going to

I think I'm going to find the courage to do this
to make you notice me but how it's going to be done I'm clueless
I hope I find it because it's a chance that I want to take
to get to know you better up close in person instead of trying to read you from far away
Or should I say from across the room or better yet as you wait in the hallway to enter class
Ur smile is what caught my eye and made me think the question "Why not?"
go for it now maybe I will but until then I guess I'm at a standstill
I tried this once before and it didn't turn out the way I'd hoped
Maybe this time will be different and we are able to hangout and joke around
I hope I gain the courage to do this because if I don't then I might not ever get another chance
And if this chance is given up I'm going to be stuck seeing you at a glance